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20 June 2008 @ 12:31 am
[YooSu] How To Be Dead  
TITLE: How To Be Dead
PAIRING: Junsu/Yoochun; (implied) Junsu/TaeYeon, hint of Yoochun/Jaejoong
GENRE: Angst
RATING: light R
Summary: Junsu wants it all but Yoochun just wants him.
A/N: this is for enkgherel~ she requested for yoosu + taesu with the prompt 'why did i fall in love with you'. sorry i couldn't insert the doppelganger bit. T.T i wasn't sure if i would be able to pull it off so i didn't include it. XD; anyway, i hope y'all still like this. ^_^ eta: thank you to jing_16 for giving me the heads up~! ♥

it seems i've stepped over lines you've drawn again and again...
but if the ecstacy's in, the wit is definitely out.
dr jekyll is wrestling hyde, for my pride...

- how to be dead; snow patrol

Yoochun wakes up to the sound of his name, whispered so softly he barely hears it (but he does).

Wandering hands find their way underneath his shirt, Junsu's lips burning the skin right below his ear.

He knows where this is going but makes no move to stop it.

'Why fight the inevitable?' he reasons with himself, albeit bitterly. He knows he'll be hating himself later.

Junsu is shirtless, Yoochun's hand silently exploring the wide expanse of his back. He marvels at how it arches to his touch, the warmth of it to the point of feverish, lighting a fire inside him.

Junsu slips his hand inside Yoochun's pyjamas and he is gone. Gasping, moaning, Yoochun cries out Junsu's name again and again. He mutters his name (almost in reverence) as Junsu strokes him faster, kissing him everywhere except where it really matters.

'You like that, huh?' Junsu smirks, slowing down his ministrations driving Yoochun insane; the next moment biting down on Yoochun's shoulder in time with a tight fast stroke.

White flashes behind Yoochun's eyes as he comes in Junsu's hand. Jumbled words he's careful not to say out loud but wanting to say all the same (wanting so much it hurts) threatens to come out of his mouth.

He can see Junsu watching him, but not really seeing him. He can see the lust in Junsu's eyes (hoping to see something else). Yoochun averts his eyes and lands on Junsu's lips, moist, parted, inviting. He desperately wants to reach out and kiss it (wants to show just how much he wants to) but Yoochun knows it's against the rules.

When Junsu thrusts inside him without so much as a warning, Yoochun cries out; he feels himself (his heart) breaking.

He whimpers as Junsu moves slowly (lovingly, as Yoochun would like to think) inside him. He can feel himself reaching the peak again and Junsu isn't far behind.

The name that Junsu utters is not his; the way he moans it with every push, every thrust, breaks off a piece of Yoochun's heart.

He comes for the second time that night.


Yoochun watches them behind hooded eyes; the way he casually (but not really) brushes his hand against hers, the way she nonchalantly (but not really) pats his back on a job well done.

He grips the microphone in his hand a tad too tightly (like the grip Junsu has on Yoochun's heart), his other hand clenched into a fist.

He feels a hand on his shoulder, and Yoochun turns around, knowing exactly who it is.

'Are you alright?' Jaejoong silently asks, his eyes full of understanding with a smidge of pity.

'No I'm not alright!' Yoochun wants to cry out but knows it will do him no good. So he tilts his chin (a bit defiantly), swallows his tears and smiles.

'I'm fine, hyung. Just tired. And hungry,' he answers instead. Jaejoong knows Yoochun all too well and being the good friend that he is, says nothing. He knows his place.

'I'm always here if you want to talk,' he says, taking Yoochun's hand and squeezes it gently in comfort. 'Okay, soulmate?'

Yoochun squeezes back in acknowledgement and looks at his hyung's warm brown eyes and he couldn't help thinking, 'Why couldn't I just fall in love with you?'


Comments and constructive criticism would be greatly appreciated~ Thank you! ^_^
Current Mood: restlessrestless
JINGjing_16 on June 19th, 2008 05:00 pm (UTC)
first time in my life i feel like slapping junsu hard on his face.
'Why couldn't i have just fallen in love with you?' doesnt sound too smooth for me.
why couldnt i just fall in love with you?
Why cant I just fall in love with you?

ケイト: DBSK // Junsu // as;dlf 8Q_keight_michelle on June 19th, 2008 05:03 pm (UTC)
*restrains you* XDDD

oooh~ thanks~! i didn't even notice that but now that you mentioned it, it does sound kinda awkward. lol~

will edit it now. thank you again! ♥
crying on the rainapplepieprinces on June 19th, 2008 05:10 pm (UTC)
*bitch slaps junsu*


you need to continue this babe please<333
ケイト: DBSK // Junsu // Too cute for words <3keight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:10 pm (UTC)
*restrains you and hides susu* XDDD

er.. continue? *scratches head sheepishly* i dunno. i mostly do one-shots only. :D

thank you for reading~! <3
mang_dong_i: micky lazy bunnymang_dong_i on June 19th, 2008 05:22 pm (UTC)
aw! that was so sad! especially this part: "and he couldn't help thinking, 'Why couldn't I just fall in love with you?'"

your a great writer!! i'm looking forward to seeing more~
ケイト: DBSK // YooSu // guerilla datekeight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:11 pm (UTC)
we can't help who we fall in love with, y/y? D:

awww~ ^///^ thank you~! *huggles*

and thank you again for reading! ♥
siriusmoonpupsiriusmoonpup on June 19th, 2008 05:32 pm (UTC)
Ooh that is so unfair to Yoochun..stupid Junsu why does he have to use Yoochun like that? grr >.
ケイト: DBSK // Park Yoochun RAWR~keight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:16 pm (UTC)
*cuddles teh yoosu* maybe because junsu is lead to believe that yoochun is also in it just for the sex? :/

thank you for reading~! <3
(no subject) - siriusmoonpup on June 26th, 2008 03:36 am (UTC) (Expand)
费琳芮⇔アリス: Junsuonewsouffle on June 19th, 2008 05:58 pm (UTC)
Why Junsu~~~?! WHY?! ;0;

How con Junsu be such a meanie to poor Yoochunie!
ケイト: DBSK // Kim Junsukeight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:18 pm (UTC)
because yoochun lets him? D:

thank you for reading~! <3
Yuxiyuxo on June 19th, 2008 06:36 pm (UTC)


Oh Su. Well, The JaeChun at the end made me warm all over because honestly, I love the Soulmates. But good lord, YOOSU IS SO BROKEN, WRRRY~~!! ;_____;

I do like the defeated feeling in this though. =] Thanks for writing! ^3^ ♥
ケイト: DBSK // JaeChunkeight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:20 pm (UTC)
jaechun is ♥~ XDDD

aaah~ i'm glad it came out that way. that was what i was aiming for. ^_^

and thank you for reading and commenting. i really appreciate it. ^_^♥
미윤;sly_pantera on June 19th, 2008 06:39 pm (UTC)
OW. T___T

(like the grip Junsu has on Yoochun's heart) Oh, it broke me a little inside.

♥ It was beautiful though. *wibbles*
ケイト: DBSK // everybody wants some chunpie.keight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:21 pm (UTC)
T_____T *tries to piece you back together*

thank you for reading bb~ <333
Jeans: yoochun_aishiterukerori63 on June 19th, 2008 07:50 pm (UTC)
Unrequited YooSu breaks my heart more than any other pairing...

I loved it though, it's really great writing.

Now I'm going to go cry in a corner for Yoochun. =P &hearts
ケイト: DBSK // YooSu <3keight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:22 pm (UTC)
*cuddles j00* broken!yoosu breaks my heart too. (but kinda fun to write. XD;;;)

gah. ^///^ thank you~~~ <333

*joins you in the corner* ;o;
Bee Jayoldwillow_brook on June 19th, 2008 10:28 pm (UTC)

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
ケイト: DBSK // YooSu ♥keight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:23 pm (UTC)
*huggles j00*

thank you for reading~! <3
배예림: SHINEe;;Jonghyunbaeby_bloo_skys on June 20th, 2008 12:09 am (UTC)
;-; ohdear
ケイト: DBSK // JunSu // Last Angel PVkeight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:23 pm (UTC)
*gives you cookies* T.T

thank you for reading~! <333
ara_nieyara_niey on June 20th, 2008 12:34 am (UTC)
oh my poor chunnie!~*hugs him*

and junsu..*kick his ass*
ケイト: DBSK // Park Yoochunkeight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:24 pm (UTC)
thank you for reading~! <3
Kryz-chan: yoosuhugbaby_jin on June 20th, 2008 01:17 am (UTC)
Grr.... Stupid Junsu!!

'Why couldn't I just fall in love with you?' T_T Yeah Chun, Jae might have been better for you.
ケイト: DBSK // YooSu // bite me.keight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:26 pm (UTC)
we can't help who we fall in love with, y/y? ;o;

thank you for reading~! <333
뭘해도 퍼포파트서을 상태coke_pie221 on June 20th, 2008 02:31 am (UTC)
poor chunnie~ X[
how could you do this su!?
ToT..the love is gone~ *sniffs*
broken yoosu</3 T-T
ケイト: DBSK // YooSu <3keight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:26 pm (UTC)
*huggles j00* ;o;

thank you for reading~! <3
md_writingmd_writing on June 20th, 2008 03:13 am (UTC)
This is so heartbreaking and beautiful at the same time... T_T

You're an incredible writer; I felt every second of Yoochun's pain. "He grips the microphone in his hand a tad too tightly (like the grip Junsu has on Yoochun's heart)" *dies*
ケイト: DBSK // YooChun <3keight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:28 pm (UTC)
aj;sldfj ^///^ thank you~~~ ;o;

Meerotic.: How to kill Park Yoochunenkhgerel on June 20th, 2008 05:19 am (UTC)
This is the first work that is ever done for me and it's beautiful. I love every word of it.

He grips the microphone in his hand a tad too tightly (like the grip Junsu has on Yoochun's heart), his other hand clenched into a fist. WOW. I LOVE it.

Thank you, thank you. ^^
ケイト: DBSK // YooSu ♥keight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:29 pm (UTC)
kyaaa~ i'm glad you liked it bb~ ^///^

and you're very much welcome! ♥♥♥
dongbangniedongbangnie on June 20th, 2008 06:16 am (UTC)
yoosu breaking...

soulmate jaechun... hope they can fall in love then mayb junsu will realize if he got feeling for yoochun or not. if junsu really love tat girl, then at least yoochun can be happy with jae jae. ne...
ケイト: DBSK // YooSu // choose me babykeight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:31 pm (UTC)
maybe if yoochun tells junsu exactly how he feels instead of keeping it all bottled up inside, maybe junsu will have second thoughts. XD

thank you for reading~! <3
noelle: YooSunoelledominique on June 20th, 2008 10:40 am (UTC)
oh snap. ;_;
that was my heart breaking, btw.

that's all i have to say. it just hurts, and well written. guh.
ケイト: DBSK // everybody wants some chunpie.keight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:32 pm (UTC)
*tries to glue you heart back together* T.T

thank you for reading bb~ <333
紫のチャンミン: JaeChun cruising in pariskurogoma on June 20th, 2008 10:45 am (UTC)
the jaechun is ♥
ケイト: DBSK // JaeChunkeight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:33 pm (UTC)
*waves soulmates banner* :D ♥
usagi_barausagi_bara on June 21st, 2008 06:54 pm (UTC)
Sad, so sad

ケイト: DBSK // Kim Junsukeight_michelle on June 25th, 2008 01:34 pm (UTC)
*huggles j00* ;o;

thanks for reading~! <333
tinseltown16: Junsu - teh angry duck. XDtinseltown16 on June 27th, 2008 11:34 am (UTC)
*gasp* D: alj;skjfl;sjlf damn it, NOOOOO! *kicks su* D8<

*cuddles you* ILU! ♥
ケイト: DBSK // YooSu ♥keight_michelle on June 27th, 2008 03:32 pm (UTC)
*protects su and pats the duckbutt* :Dv

*cuddles back* thank you for reading~~~ ilu too! ^^♥
~♥Hope to the End. Always Keep the Faith♥~chloe1910 on July 1st, 2008 05:31 pm (UTC)
poor Yoochun..unrequited love sure hurts like hell *smack Junsu for being such an insensitive and selfish bastard*
ケイト: DBSK // Kim Junsukeight_michelle on July 2nd, 2008 07:54 am (UTC)
*cuddles chunbuns* ;o;

thank you for reading bb~! *huggles j00* <3
kyokoryu: Kyokoryu junsukyokoryu on July 2nd, 2008 09:45 am (UTC)
gahh. i know this was written last month, but i just saw it now, and couldnt help saying kate is made of awesomeness.

made my heart so mushed up for chun.

>_<... su...so coveted..

poor jaejae... kate chan.... can i cry here? now? wuaaaaa.....
ケイト: DBSK // YooSuMinkeight_michelle on July 2nd, 2008 09:49 am (UTC)
awww~ thank you bb~ ^///^ ♥

*cuddles j00* don't cry! makes me want to cry too. ;o;

thank you again for reading~ <333
Jennifermrsedjack on September 15th, 2008 05:17 pm (UTC)
Yes, break my heart, why don't you...
Guh. Ouch. I need some fluff now. D:

ケイト: DBSK // YooSu <3keight_michelle on September 16th, 2008 03:15 pm (UTC)
DDD: *mends your heart*

i would write you some fluff if i could. ;_; *shakes fist at muses*

thank you for reading bb~ <3
(no subject) - mrsedjack on September 23rd, 2008 05:34 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - keight_michelle on October 27th, 2008 07:55 am (UTC) (Expand)
Kay Jaykayjayloves on October 26th, 2008 04:18 am (UTC)
;____; ♥ so beautifully written. my heart D:

ケイト: DBSK // YooSu // love love lovekeight_michelle on October 27th, 2008 07:53 am (UTC)
*mends your heart* ♥

thank you for reading and commenting bb~ <3